Fears From The Past

SO many good wishes and tremendous hopes marked the beginning of year 2009       

My life was deeply filled by the beautiful colours laid in by December 2008 and I was on cloud no. 9

There was love and happiness all around

And poor myself completely unknown to what is my life going to turn about?

Slowly slowly as the time moves on and on

Blossom of the flowers started fading away and bright sunshine set on the way back to the coldness at dawn.

Finally the illusion I was living in came to a halt

When the people whom I loved from the core of my heart drifted me apart

I was left all alone in the dark

Wandering lonely in the maze to search out what I did wrong?

I was pushed into the depths of solitude

Time was turning out more and more rude

But little left solitaire was still hounding me

Though life was becoming worst than it had ever been

After long terrible nights I found out little sunshine

And after a series of jolts, my drowning ship found steady waves to sail upon

By the passage of time I stepped out of that dark maze

And gradually learnt the art of pretendence though I was in haze

Slowly I absorbed myself in daily life

And hid that hurted soul under a fake smile

Life is to move on, so did I

Accepted the truth and led my tears dry

But now December has fallen again my way

I don't want to recall anything, but I am in dismay

Because whenever I feel happy and be carefree

I find those FEARS FROM THE PAST sitting by my side laughing loudly at me

Whatever I do, where ever I go

I found them following me like my shadow

And now they are getting on my nerves

I am desperate to overcome all my fears

I want to start a new era of life with a welcoming cast

BUT I dont know myself

WOULD I ALWAYZ BE DOMINATED BY THE FEARS FROM THE PAST???

WOULD I ALWAYS BE DOMINATED BY THE FEARS OF THE PAST?????